Understanding Grief When Your Child Dies

When your child dies, the pain and devastation of your loss can feel overwhelming.  Some of the immediate emotions in grief are shock, numbness, denial, confusion and disbelief, all of which can act as a cushion against the full impact of your loss.

As time passes some of these early emotions may begin to wear off as others emerge including guilt, anger, loneliness, despair, sadness and regret. Because of the intensity of all of the emotions you are feeling, you may not be fully able to comprehend all that you are experiencing.  These feelings and emotions are all a normal and natural response to the death of someone you love.

Every individual will process grief in their own unique way.  Some can and will express their pain easily and openly, while others will keep their feelings locked inside.  While there is no “right” or “wrong” way to grieve, many bereaved parents have found it helpful to have some guidance and support along the way.  The following information has been prepared by bereaved parents to help you on your grief journey.

Emotional Aspects of Grief

The grief journey has many emotional peaks and valleys and lasts far longer than society in general recognizes.  Because each person’s grief journey is unique, you may find that you, your spouse and your family are all processing their grief at different speeds and in different ways.  The loss of a child isn’t something you will get over; it is something you will learn to go through.  When your child dies, the grief journey does not end in a week, a month or even a year.  Don’t let others’ expectations be a guideline for your own progress.  Be patient with yourself and with your family members.  It also helps to be tolerant and accepting of the different approaches others may take.

Physical Aspects of Grief

Grief will often manifest itself in physical ways. You may find yourself unable to sleep or eat; or you may want to sleep or eat constantly.  Feeling tired, walking in a fog, long and short-term memory loss and an inability to concentrate are common.  When you are grieving, your body is going through stress.  Eating a healthy diet, drinking lots of water combined with walking and light exercise can help.  It is especially important to avoid the abuse of drugs and alcohol in hopes of making the pain go away.  Prescription medication should be taken sparingly and only under the supervision of a physician.  Many substances are addictive and may lead to a chemical dependence that stops or delays the necessary grieving process.

Spiritual Aspects of Grief

Re-examining priorities and questioning your belief structures is normal.  Many in grief find their faith to be a source of great strength, while others are mad at God.  Allowing yourself to fully feel and openly express the changes you may be experiencing in your belief structure can be helpful.  It is important to be patient with yourself as you sort out your feelings.

Making Decisions

When a child has died, parents are often faced with decisions affecting the future.  Changing jobs or moving away are two major decisions that bereaved parents often face and may falsely believe “if we do this, we will feel better.  “Hold off on major decisions until the time is right.  When you move, you may lose the very support system that you need the most.

Do not be rushed or forced into doing things by others who may be well-meaning but misinformed. Cleaning out a child’s room and their belongings is very personal, take your time and do this when YOU are ready.  Some find that going through their child’s belongings is a natural part of the grieving process and helps them with processing their loss. Smelling their child’s clothes, for instance, can bring a feeling of nearness.  Others may find it impossible to tackle this job. Trust your instincts as you will know when and if the time is right.

Will Life Ever Be Good Again?

Many grieving parents wonder if life will ever be good again.  It is often hard to imagine ever smiling, laughing or finding joy again.  It is important to understand that grief is a journey, the sharp and jagged pain you feel right now will eventually begin to soften.  In time your focus can shift away from your child’s death toward your child’s life.  It is important that you tell your story and are allowed to say your child’s name as you move forward in life.  You will never forget them; you will always love them and if your life is to be good again you must continue to fully express that love.  Many grieving parents find that helping others, in honor of their child who has died, can be a healing and helpful way to express that love.

While every parent will ultimately have to find their own road through grief, you will survive and you do not have to walk this journey on your own.  There is plenty of support available from those who have already been where you are today. You Need Not Walk Alone.


About Tonya Aycock

Hi, my name is Tonya. I am a wife and mom of two children (Brandon & Brently). I am a born again Christian. My passion is raising awareness for my boys and making sure they have the very best that I can give them. I love singing. I was in a Southern Gospel Group for about three years, and I enjoyed every minute of it. I think most of all, besides the singing, I enjoyed meeting people and sharing my testimony of how God has brought me through. I love playing guitar and hearing my sweet husband play music and sing to our boys. I enjoy making crafts and designing floral arrangements. I love camping. I am always up for a new adventure! I enjoy working in my yard and anything outdoors. I love my home. I like taking pictures of God’s beautiful creation. The hummingbirds, Canadian geese, turtles, and deer are beautiful! I never dreamed that I would enjoy the country as much as I do. I have always been a city kind of girl, so let’s just say I am adjusting to the country's life well. Haha! Another exciting thing about my husband and myself is that we have always wanted to open a restaurant. Maybe one day… who knows…. I created this blog to share the in’s and out’s of daily living of being a mom of children with special needs, how life can change in an instant, losing a child, finding real friendships that live the same kind of life that I do that truly understand, and much more. I love to talk about my faith as I learn how to cope through life (good and bad) together. I want to always put complete control in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, because without Him, I am nothing. My prayer is that I can somehow help someone by sharing my story. It is most definitely easier said than done, and I fail daily, but striving to make things work in a world that doesn’t understand is just one of the reasons I am here, writing and sharing my story and trying to be the best me as I can and being the best mother that my children will love and respect and see me survive and thrive as I watch them surviving two thriving in life. But, most of all that they see Jesus in me. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 God has a plan for my life and my family as well and for who is reading this right now. I can only hope and pray that I am doing what He has called me to do…… Being a wife, mom, advocate of special needs, a friend, encourager, but most of all… a servant of His. This has been and continues to be a unique life raising my SuPeR HeRo children dancing in the rain of the beautiful, messy life!
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